Double Life

Sometimes I feel as though I live a double life - the life in my head and the life I let others in on. As I said a few days ago, I have not shared my story with many people yet it influences everything about me. I want to share I just can't - not yet. I want others to know that the abuse crosses my mind several times a week and sometimes even daily yet I don't want to be "the victim." I struggle with trying to work with the hand I was dealt but not allowing it to control me. Today the weather is grim which always haunts me.